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I am standing in front of the mirror in the morning, doing those things that one does between the shower and breakfast, getting ready for the day ahead. This particular morning I have woken up with some fear in my belly over moving ahead with aspects of my life, anxiety about projects I’m working on, how well the manifesting is going in the career sphere.
As I’m working in front of the mirror, I’m thinking about how I ought to feel. I know that I need to be in a less anxious and more positive space for successful manifesting to occur. I begin to notice that my mind is trying to think me into that positive space: that relaxed, open feeling of gratitude and certainty in the bounty of the universe.
I have learned some time ago that willing things in to reality, while possible in theory, is exhausting in practice and in any case not the way my being creates most naturally. Holding the appropriate emotional state, full of gratitude and certainty in the flow of abundance, and allowing that to flow through the vision of what I am intending to attract into my life is both easier and more powerful.
So my mind has backed off a level, but still believing that it has the answers, or is supposed to come up with them, it is now trying to will the appropriate levels of surrender and gratitude and trust. This is pretty funny. I begin to find my amusement.
I also realize why this isn’t really working too well. My internal narration is writing out the description of the emotional state it thinks I should be feeling, but I am still being held in the mental levels of awareness. So I check in on the feeling levels. I drop down into my heart, which has felt these things and knows where they are and remembers how to get there again.
Letting my heart open, as my awareness shifts into the world of feeling and flow, and releasing the mental narration, I begin to breath deeper, to relax into that place I have been looking for. Now I am feeling for it, the anxiety is dissipating and space is expanding inside me for gratitude, for receptivity of the support and abundance that the universe is already sending towards my intention and vision.
As I headed into my day in a different place than before, I am grateful for this gift of awareness from spirit, and the reminder that my heart is powerful and can work many things more easily than my mind, grateful to experience again the ability of the heart to find the way back to myself, to gratitude, joy, and receptivity. This is the proper space for manifesting dreams.
May these come ever more easily for all of us. Blessed be
© 3/08
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